schoolies, uni, and other stuff :)

Woah this might turn into a superduper long post, so I'll probably have to split it. See how it goes :D

SCHOOLIES!

Rye was absolutely freaking amazing. I miss being there! Thanks so much to Soph and her parents for letting us run wild in their beach house and providing food hehe <3

The weather was less than desirable for a beach trip, but we had tonnes of fun all the same. Nights playing Truth or Dare (which turned into just Truth), "I Never", and just taking shots for the heck of it- these are times I won't forget.

So beautiful (photo stolen off Soph cos I didn't bring a camera)

Me and Viv

Me and Lisa (love the colours in this one)
 

Uh, drunken artwork :)

 Group pic just before we left

Love you guys <3

** Revisiting this old post because I never finished it, & an update is now well overdue **

Thinking back to schoolies makes me feel sad and sentimental :( Only time will tell how many of my high school friends I'll keep in touch with years from now..

Uni.. I don't feel much like talking about it now because preferences have been lodged/confirmed already. First-round offers won't come out for about a month and I'm taking full advantage of that month by not thinking about it at all, because I don't have to :)

The future both scares me and excites me. I'm so curious and excited for uni life and the time where I get to settle down and start a family. It's a journey where the possibilities inspire me, but the uncertainty of where life will take me is what scares me.

Sometimes the hardest thing is knowing when to take control and when to go with the flow.

When I was in Year 9 (about 14 years old) we canoed something like 70km down the Murray river on camp over 5 days, and one night we were urged to take some time out to ponder the following statement: "Life is like a river"

If life is like a river, do you trust where it will take you if you just let go? Or are you supposed to struggle and fight the natural flow? It's so tiring trying to fight it, and lately I've been wondering about all the things I would never discover if I were persistent in not going with the flow. You could say it's directionless, but then I would say you're narrowminded for only considering one fate for your life.

But it's a retaliation and it's only because sometimes I feel like you're right. They say it's okay to take your time in finding your direction, but I worry that I won't ever find mine. When I imagine my future, it's always with a family of my own- because I know that at the end of the day, that's going to be the most important thing to me. But what about everything else? What happens between now and then?

I wish life had a pause button because time keeps moving faster, and I'm not seeing any progress.