totally unneccesary entry

Man it's getting so hot in Melbourne now :( I miss winter already, and looking at pics of my friend holidaying in England (where it's winter) just make me super super jealous !

Okay on Monday we celebrated Lisa's bday .. I just realised I need to start tkaing more photos, but i dont like the camera on my N97mini (it's harsh, slow, and loud ) so even when I take pictures, it's mostly on other peoples' cameras! But we went to The Conservatory at Crown and ateateate til we were bursting at the seams ! The desserts were exquisite ;) and there was this berry cheesecake thing that was seriously "jizz in my pants" quality.

I didn't do anything today because the pollen count was super high and it was too hot anyway. I watched "Forgetting Sarah Marshall" and just bummed around :)

Tomorrow, as much as I would like to stay at home and drink iced beverages, I have to head over to school where I am no longer a student =0 I don't think I visitors pass, but will I need one next year should I go back to visit? I wouldnt go, but hypothetically, when is it necessary for me to have a visitors pass :S

Wow, that was totally irrelevant LOL I blame the heattt! Ok here ends this post :)

P.S. I DESPERATELY NEED TO TRAVEL! But for now, I can't wait til schoolies WHEWWW!

i cant be bothered rereading this and my head hurts

Omgosh so many things to blog about because now that exams are over, so much stuff has been happening.

To quickly recap;
Wednesday
Went to school for a bit to attend to some business :) and then went to the city with Viv, Sam, Soph and Lisa to bum around and shop as non-highschoolers. Then the others finally came and we went to eat at Grill'd. From memory, I was pretty knackered by the end of the day because hayfever was really awful and my eyes were about to give up and collapse in on themselves..

Friday
Went to YiLing's house to dye her hair. I'd never dyed hair before so that was an interesting experience and I sincerely hope I didn't ruin it :(
Then on friday night we had our Valedictory, which wasn't too bad considering I was really not in the mood for a formal event haha =P

Saturday
Went to watch Harry Potter 7 (part 1) and shop around a little. The movie was pretty good, quite suspenseful, but I think you'd only appreciate it if you'd read the books.
Then had Amanda's 18th that night. She had it in my old suburb, and I drove past my primary school on the way there. It felt really sad.. It's the same feeling as when you see your ex .__. it's like it doesn't fit into your life at all anymore, but you know it's something you'll always care about. /wrist *emo haha jokes ~

But on the subject of LOOOOVEEEE. (and because I really like answering these surveys,) I'm going to answer these questions so that I can one day read this with my future husband and compare him to my currently-ideal-future-husband LOL.

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Goodlooking in my eyes :)

2. Smart?
Yeah, I'd like his IQ to be above 120 .. over 135 would please me LOL

3. Preferred age?
'A few' years older :) that is so vague..

4. Preferred height?
Preferred height would probably be 175-180 .. but as long as he's taller than me when I wear heels then we're good (Y)

5. How about sense of humor?
Yeah, he needs to appreciate my kind of humour and not think I'm weird :(

6. How about piercings?
Ears are fine- eyebrow is .. acceptable perhaps if he looks like Puck from Glee

7. Accepts you for who you are?
No, I really want a guy who hates who I am. *heavy sarcasm*

8. Pink hair?
.. I'd really prefer not

9. Mushy or no?
Hmm, not too mushy and not in public ;)

10. Thin or fat?
Tank ! Nah um, somewhere in between? :)

11. Black, Brown, Yellow or White (skin color)?
I can sense this question causing problems in my future marriage.. so I'm going to say I'm down for them all LOL.

12. Long hair or short hair?
I generally prefer short. And if he's a guy who looks good with long hair, then just.. Please not longer than mine.

13. Plastic or metal?
Wut.

14. Smells good?
Yum cologne :)

15. Smoker?
Prefer not, because cigarettes make everything smell weird, and they're a waste of money that could be spent on our future childrens' education >=[

16. Drinker?
I can't say I wouldn't be impressed if he could hold his alcohol well. Nothing worse than a bratty kid who is allegedly "off his face" after two beers LOL.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
Boy-from-Calvin-Klein-catalogue type..

18. Muscular?
:)

19. Plays piano?
Yeah *shrugs

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
Yum :)

21. Plays violin?
On par with the guy who plays the piano =P

22. Sings very well?
Sing songs to me <3

23. Vain?
O HELLL NAWWW.

24. With glasses?
Doesn't matter so much, but I would like our children to at least have a chance of having perfect vision :(

25. With braces?
Probably would prefer him not to have braces when we're in our 20s LOL.

26. Shy type?
Hm, not too shy, but not overconfident either

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Good boy :) But it's okay if he's a rebel, as long as he's *my* rebel.

28. Active or passive?
Active, but not a stalker..

29. Tight or bomb?
Wut.

30. Singer or dancer
HM, this is so hard.. dancer? Oh but dancers can't dance you a lullaby :(

31. Stunner?
Hungry Jacks. LOL

32. Hiphop?
Uh yes?

33. Earrings?
Already answered this- earrings are chill with me.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
Noooo :(

35. Dimples?
Cute, but I wouldn't reject a guy because of his lack of dimples ._.

36. Bookworm?
Probably not.

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
YESYESYESYESYESYESYESYES. Call me a sap but I love reading letters :)

38. Playful?
I guess so?

39. Flirt?
.. I hope he's only flirting with me >=[

40. Poem writer?
Sure :)

41. Serious?
Yeah..

42. Campus crush?
Wut..

43. Painter?
Um, I don't really care.

44. Religious?
Complicated, but I guess so.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
What a pointless question >__>

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
*sigh, if he's asian then this is probably a given. =__=

47. Speaks 20 languages?
Hawttt.

48. Loyal or Faithful?
Definitelyyy

49. Good kisser?
If he's bad, we can just practise :) OH GOSH, how corny and disgusting.

50. Loves children?
Not more than I love children. Because that might be illegal..

tasteless risotto

I can't believe all my exams are over!

I woke up at 11:30AM and decided I wanted to become pro at cooking so I started making risotto. In hindsight it was probably a very rash decision considering I hadnt bought any ingredients for it, but I just improvised without stock, cooking wine, mushrooms (compulsory to any risotto, in my eyes) and onions (I couldn't find them LOL).

I don't think it turned out too bad, but because I used water instead of stock, it wasnt very salty :( My dad said it was salty enough, but I think he was just trying to make me feel better. Then he said it was 'nice, kind of like congee' and I got upset because if I just wanted to make chicken and broccoli congee, I could have saved so much trouble >__>

Oh well, I have 3 months or so to brush up on my cooking :) Now that I think of it, 3 months really isnt that long .. it's 12 weeks, one of which I will be on schoolies, and I will be in Malaysia for another two weeks. That means I've only got 9 weeks in Melbourne this holidays and it sounds so short..

I think this is a sign that I'm getting old, because old people always complain that time goes too quickly LOL :(

Umm, so other than cooking, I watched an unhealthy amount of Glee (almost up to date now) and cleaned out some stuff in my room. I now have 2 boxes of old books, 1 box of piano music+craft, and another box of "memories". It felt really sad packing everything away, and throwing a lot of stuff out.. But I'm also glad it's all over. I don't really want to think about school anymore ~

Oh and this is probably my OCD self talking, but it feels so good to have identical boxes that stack beautifully in my closet. AHHHHHH!! Life is gooood right now :) I sort of want to chill at home for a few days, but this week is going to be really busy.

I guess by the weekend, I will have heaps of stuff to blog about. But right now I will just call it a day and hit the hay (:

GOODNIGHT!

gleeeee !

Officially addicted to Glee. I am officially a Gleek.

I started watching it today, and I'm halfway through episode 10 at the moment. I wanted to blog about it because I'm feeling this unhealthy attachment to the characters at this point LOL. I know it's fictional, but I really can't stand seeing Finn messing around with Rachel, even if they don't "do anything".

So this is how I see it at the moment:
Quinn is dating Finn, but she's pregnant with Finn's best friend, Puck's baby. She apparently got drunk one night and they slept together, because she "felt fat that day". Finn somehow believes that he got her pregnant even though they've never slept together because he .. sort of jizzed in the spa when they were making out LOL. Uh, so Puck knows he's the father because he's the only guy Quinn has slept with, and when he finds out about her pregnancy, he expects that he's going to be the one looking after her and their baby (aww). Puck genuinely likes Quinn, but she doesn't think he can support them financially/be a good dad. So she won't tell anyone who the real father is, and she really wants to hold onto Finn even though obviously there's some chemistry between Finn and Rachel.

Okay so you're probably wondering why I'm so worked up about Finn doing the "cheating", when Quinn is the one who had sex with her boyfriend's best friend.

But I don't see it like that. I see Quinn as someone who made one mistake, and she was just unlucky that her one mistake become something bigger and how she has a baby on the way. On top of that, her boyfriend is an immature, irresponsible, cheating little loser who doesn't really seem to care about her or the baby. Let's not forget that he thinks this is his baby- and yet he complains that hes too busy/tired to get a job? Um hello, what about his tired girlfriend carrying another person inside of her?

And I think Quinn is too in love with Finn to leave him even though he keeps getting uncomfortably close/flirty with Rachel who is soo into him. It really shits me that these people can't just make decisions.

I like Puck because he's made a decision to do what he can for Quinn and the baby, even if she won't acknowledge that it's his. He would do anything to make a life for his family, even if it means breaking the rules, and he keeps trying to show her that, by earning money to give to Quinn. I like Quinn because she made a decision to stay with Finn, even though he's not helping her with the baby. I really think she should just elope with Puck because he's the one who really cares about her, but at least she's made her decision (as far as I can tell), and she's sticking with it.

But people like Finn need to grow a pair and decide what they want. If he wants Rachel's "nice ass" then maybe he should just break up with Quinn and stop being such a douchebag. And if he really loves Quinn, then he should start becoming a man and think about how to provide for his girl instead of flirting with ugly, annoying girls with huge noses. The thing that I hate the most about Rachel is that she still wants Finn so badly even though he has a pregnant girlfriend. That is just sooo out of line. I mean as if her self-centredness isnt enough, but she has to be a homewrecker too?

And speaking of home-wreckers. Why is Emma so damn desperate? I don't understand how you can look at a married man with a baby on the way, and still try and take him away from his family. Okay maybe I don't understand because I've never met my "soulmate". Maybe it's normal to be completely selfish when you find someone and you know that they are 'the one' for you.

But in my ignorance, all I see is a bunch of selfish pricks who don't care about other people's families. And it makes me sick. What if you were a loving and devoted wife and mother who made a decision to do dedicate your life to your family. And then one day your husband decides to leave you for this bimbotic girl at work who has been eyeing him for ages.

It all just makes me so upset and angry. I actually feel like crying sometimes because I don't understand why some couples can be so screwed up.

You know, it sounds really stupid, but I recently I've started to wish that I would find a guy who I loved more than he loved me. I know a lot of people want the security of finding someone who loves them more, and I thought I wanted that too, but after seeing so many failed relationships, I thought I needed something different. I'm not saying I want someone who will hurt me, but I do want someone who could hurt me bad if they wanted to. Oh geez, I realise I'm beginning to sound like a sadist now... but I really think that devotion is more important than power in a relationship.

For my husband, I will make his sandwiches and iron his clothes, I'll bake him cookies and even give up custard if he's allergic (I love custard. LOVE). I will cut the crusts off his bread if he likes that, and still love him if he's a geek with no friends. And if he's a magpie enthusiast ... ok no, sorry I will not have a pet magpie because they are disgusting and scary..

Ok the point is that I was becoming comfortable with the idea of trusting someone so much that you can love them unconditionally*. I remember some really old-school quote, "Loving someone is giving them the power to destroy you, but trusting them not to". But watching all this makes me hope I don't even have to love someone so much that I can't leave them when I know they're only hurting me. It's almost torturous to watch because it hurts :( Maaaan, I am getting way too into this. I know these people are idiots, but I can't stop watching.

But I guess what gets to me is not so much the dumb characters, it just makes me realise how many crappy people are out there. I'm going to end this blog abruptly now because I'm too annoyed to think anymore, and I have more Glee to watch >__>

*I don't even know if people are capable of unconditional love.. but Tupac says they are, so that's a good sign LOL :D

what a boring post :(

OMG hayfever is seriously killing me right now! My eyes feel so irritated they want to pop out of my face :(

Today I had my chem exam in the morning- I was soo insanely stoned because it was a morning exam and it was the first time I'd had to wake up before 7AM in like a month LOL.

I don't think I did great in the exam, but it wasn't too bad either. Right now it's difficult to tell how well I did because all I can think about is how I am to freedommmmm!! Oh and my ridiculously itchy eye >__>

In 4 days I will have all the time in the world to do anything I want- it's a nice thought, but it's a little daunting. I've spoken to people who have finished exams already, and they say theyre bored because there's so much time and nothing to do. I guess it's because most people are still studying for exams, and there will be a lot more to do in a week from now :)

But after the Chem exam, we had Japanese class which I was anticipating to be really intense. But we didn't really do very much and my brain wasn't too stressed out after :)

Soph, Viv x2, Steph and I then went to the Gallery to check out some art! I have some photos of Steph's paintings and they are absolutely amazing. Like seriously, you could probably sell them for hundred of dollars (but don't quote me because I swear one day they'll go for thousands!). Eurgh I want to show you, but I have a feeling I'm not allowed to post those on here. Something to do with VCAA owning the rights to it?

AANYWAY RAAAAWRRR, I need to have a shower now :)
ps. sorryyy boring post, I'm just soo bland today :(

the luckiest day of my life thus far.

Today was a good day!

I woke up this morning feeling anxious. I then contemplated how big my asshole would be by the end of the day, after being anal raped by my physics exam (.. uh, too graphic?).

I planned to get to school at about 10, and do a practice exam just to get my mind warmed up. So off I went, to take the bus to school! This is when I began to feel the universe smiling joyously at me because while walking to the bus stop I could not help but notice the blatant absence of magpies in my neighbourhood.

Now if you dont already know, I'm utterly terrified of magpies. I've heard too many stories of eyes being gouged out though I have never been attacked before, and I take severe measures to keep it that way LOL. (I might write a separate blog entry about this later if I get bored enough)

Anyway, at this point it seemed the world was finally repaying me for my contributions ! Then as I walked from the bus stop to my school, another wonderful thing happened.

A BIRD CRAPPED IN FRONT OF ME!

I did not see the bird, but a little "plop" of birdpoo appeared not more than 20cm in front of me. Now when I was telling Vivian about this, she said that you're only lucky if it craps ON you. But I certainly would not feel very lucky if this bird had taken a dump on my head. So I don't mean to brag or anything- but almost being crapped on by a bird is like the luckiest of all luckies!

AND THEN. Now you're just going to think I'm lying, but also while walking to school, I saw a butterfly! Now this is pretty rare for me and it's probably the first butterfly I've seen all year. WOW! Now all I need is that field of daisies, and my dream can finally come true :D (refer to blogpost a few days ago)

Then I had my physics exam! Which wasn't as fantastic as the magpies, birdpoo and butterflies, but thankfully my asshole is still intact!

But it's definitely a weird feeling wondering if this is the end of my relationship with Newton. :(

No more forces, friction or electromagnetic induction. No more amperes, newtons, teslas, webers or ohms.
And best of all, no more staying up til 2AM finishing a cheatsheet that I left til the last minute! LOL jokes, I never did that anyway because I hate cheatsheets .__.

*sigh.. But I feel somewhat sad, even though Physics and I hardly spent any time together throughout the year. But at the end of the day (semester), we could spend hours trying to make it work, and it was still my baby <3

"Every couple have their moment- but if they torque, they can resolve their differences."

Ok, let's cut the sentimental stuff, because you probably don't care about my relationship with Physics and this is probably awkward fo you. Like watching two ugly people PDA ... *shudders

UMM, but regarding the Physics exam. It was quite long, relatively hard, but still do-able. Long, hard and do-able is generally a good thing, so I won't read too much into that. But the important thing is that I didn't get raped :)

After the exam, Vivian and I went out for lunch so we could discuss it. Yummy, we had Korean food <3 Oh and we had a nice interesting chat about a few other things including stingy asians and naive people, but this post is going to be too long if I write about it now =P

Oh my, what a splendid day! And now I'm back home but I really don't feel like studying for chemistry which is tomorrow :( I'm soo not ready for it.. better wear two layers of thick pants, and a belt .. If you don't get that, then you're not supposed to :D

GOODBYE PHYSICS! I WILL MISS YOUUU :(

I can't believe this is the end,
And it is now too late to mend,
Any mistakes I may have penned,
In the time together we did spend,
Oftentimes you, I do not comprehend
But to see you soon I do intend,
Our relationship, I wish to extend,
Dear Physics, my beloved friend.

photos and stranger danger!

Ahhh, I was looking at pictures from CLC which was about 1.5 years ago, and I think I still look more or less the same...

Um I lolled at the following picture because of the poser-ness of this photo .. soooo teenybopper.  Do I still pose like that? Please tell me I don't :(

Anyway this was "then", 1.5 years ago (I'm the one on the left in case somehow you can't tell LOL)

 

And this is now. Well actually I think it was sometime earlier this year- I think I just discovered that I don't have many photos from this year :(

Um, I so I'll list the differences

1. My hair got longer :D

2. Less TB

3. I now wear more makeup ( T__T )

4. Eyes look different (probably because of #3, or because I'm not like O_O in the 2nd picture)

4. I got fatter ( T__T )

5. I have no friends (as indicated by the lonely webcam photo)

*INTERRUPTION*

HOLY SH*T. SOMEONE JUST RANG THE DOORBELL AND I FULLY FREAKED OUT BECAUSE

1. MUMMY SAYS NEVER OPEN THE DOOR TO STRANGERS

2. I'm wearing boxers with the australian flag on them (I promise I'm not a bogan)

3. I'm just not ... adequately clothed to answer the door

4. I sort of look like a slob right now

You know in Charlie's Angels when Cameron Diaz opens the door in her PJs/underwear? Yeah sorry, but NOBODY looks that damn fine in the morning, okay? I bet even Cameron Diaz doesn't look like that in real life when she wakes up.

OMGOSH they rang the doorbell like 3 times, I'm so scared O__O and I can hear noises .. like a ladder. Maybe they're here to fix something.. BUT WHY DO THEY NEED ME TO ANSWER THE DOOR. JUST DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO AND LEAVE ME ALONE *hides in the kitchen*

Oh, well that's great. My power just cut out. What the hell, we pay our bills :( We're not like some cheap asian .. ok the power is back ._. (I'm on my laptop btw, that's why the power cutting out isn't a big deal)

Now I'm still too scared to walk past the door in case some scary man is still waiting there. Waiting to watch me feel uncomfortable standing in the doorway in inadequate clothing T__T

But yes- that is another thing about me.. I hate answering the door to strangers. It's always so awkward because I don't want whatever they're trying to sell to me. Actually it's more to do with the fact that if I'm home alone, I'm just a slob and ... I will just stop there before I make myself out to be some disgusting ball of slime :)

And I also hate it when people I know come over unannounced. I mean I'm all for hanging out and stuff, but do you think it would kill you to let me know you're coming over first? Geez, like maybe I was planning on waxing my legs, and then you decide to show up halfway, and I awkwardly have one hairy leg and residual wax still on one leg. Yeah, I bet you didn't think of that. Gosh. (Yeah .. attractive, I know)

So no, I don't like it when you "surprise" me by showing up at my door randomly at ridiculous hours (very early in the morning, or very late at night). I appreciate the thought, but you won't appreciate my fat, un-made-up face with a big frown on it because you decided to invade my personal space (my house).

Maybe this is why I don't have any friends LOL hahaha.. Nah but in all honesty, showing up and waiting outside someone's house is reminiscent of stalkers and fights with boyfriends (or stalkerish boyfriends). I think that's why I don't like it.

Storytime: I remember a friend who we will call Sue, whose boyfriend (actually it depends on whose side of the story you believe), but according to Sue, she and the boyfriend were "taking a break". During this time, he still waited outside her house to see what time she was came home, when she left the house again and who she was with . Okay fair enough, he's a reaaally nice guy and he only did it because he suspected her of cheating on him, but who can blame her when her current "boyfriend" stalks her like that?

Ah nooo that's a horrible thing to say because I think there's no excuse for cheating anyway, but that's not the point.

The point is that sitting outside someone elses house is an invasion of privacy and is just plain creepy.